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  Also by Chris Offutt

  Kentucky Straight

  The Same River Twice

  The Good Brother

  Out of the Woods

  No Heroes: A Memoir of Coming Home

  My Father, the Pornographer

  COUNTRY

  DARK

  CHRIS OFFUTT

  Copyright © 2018 by Chris Offutt

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  For Melissa Allee Ginsburg

  I returned home to my family, with a determination to bring them as soon as possible to live in Kentucky, which I esteemed a second paradise, at the risk of my life and fortune.

  —Daniel Boone

  Table of Contents

  Cover

  Also by Chris Offutt

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Epigraph

  1954

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  1964

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  1965

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  1971

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Epilogue

  Acknowledgments

  Back Cover

  1954

  Chapter One

  Tucker had been walking for six hours through early morning ground fog that rose in shimmering waves. One vehicle passed him, a farmer with a load of firewood, two sullen kids, and a skinny wife holding a baby. Tucker knew they wouldn’t pick him up. He didn’t blame the baleful driver, a hat twisted on his head to deflect the sun, a cigarette clamped between his teeth. Poor guy had enough to worry about.

  Tucker sought shade and found a strip cast from the leg of a billboard encouraging him to buy shaving cream. He needed a shave, but didn’t figure a giant picture would convince him to spend money on something he could make from borax, oil, and chipped soap. He dropped his rucksack, opened a can of Libby’s Vienna sausages and ate them with saltine crackers. He used a church key to open a bottle of Ale-8, and drank half.

  A katydid landed on his forearm and he admired its silky green body, serrated back legs, and delicate wings. They were prettier than a grasshopper and didn’t piss all over you like frogs did. The insect leaned backward and swelled itself, the thorax expanding, wings distending as if preparing for battle. Tucker nudged it away. He dropped the empty sausage can in a ditch blooming with milkweed and set off walking.

  The sun was rising high in the sky. He needed to find more shade, sufficient enough for a nap. Instead, he caught a ride with a World War II veteran driving an old ’39 coupe. The man didn’t say a word for ninety miles, but dropped Tucker at the Ripley Bridge. He thanked the driver, who grunted, spat out the window, and drove away.

  Tucker stood in Ohio and looked across the river at the swollen green land of Kentucky. He’d left in early summer and returned in spring, a winter of war in between. He began crossing the bridge. Wind made it sway and he grabbed a strut. Briefly he recalled seeing a dozen dead enemy strewn about a dynamited bridge near the front, a boundary that changed week to week. If Ohio attacked Kentucky, one bunch or the other would blow this bridge to smithereens. Anyone who fought wouldn’t know the difference between soldiers, the same as North and South Koreans. It was Truman’s war, not Tucker’s, but he’d killed and nearly been killed and watched men tremble with fear and cry like kids. His army pay of four hundred forty dollars was folded tight and distributed about his body in every pocket. The eleven medals he received were at the bottom of his rucksack.

  He walked across the bridge and set foot on the soil he’d desperately missed. Beneath a willow grown fat from proximity to water, he used his thumbnail to split a wooden match in half, saving the other half, and lit a Lucky, reclining his head on his ruck. The swaying willow fronds scattered light and shade in a kaleidoscopic pattern that gently lulled him to sleep.

  Tucker awoke from dreamless rest, quickly alert, then relaxed as the knowledge of his whereabouts seeped through his mind. He lit another Lucky. He blew a smoke ring that dissipated as if struck by a hammer. The steeple of a church rose above the tree line and he knew a town was ahead but not the name of the town or which county he was in. It didn’t matter. He didn’t like towns—too many people doing too many things at once, and everything boring with its repetition and noise. He wondered vaguely what day it was, what month.

  Tucker drank from his canteen and headed east. Walking soothed him. He enjoyed putting his legs to work like a machine he oversaw, the ruck’s weight on his back, the familiar strain tugging his shoulders. Out of habit he kept shifting his weight to accommodate the rifle that wasn’t there. The lack of a weapon troubled him in a distant way, like an amputee who’d lost a limb.

  He’d grown up with guns as common as shovels, but had felt a genuine affection for the M1 carbine. As the shortest and youngest member of his platoon, he rarely spoke. His first words were in response to a corporal asking how he liked his rifle. Tucker had said, “Shoots good,” and a silence fell over the other men as sudden as a net. They looked at one another, then began laughing in an uproarious manner. Four died in combat and would never laugh at him again.

  He heard the rattle of an engine hitting on five cylinders, the sound like a dog with a limp. He stepped onto the grass to let a pickup go by. One tailgate chain was missing. The bumper showed daylight in rust holes, and an Ohio license plate was held in place by baling wire. The truck slowed, matching Tucker’s pace, the driver keeping the motor alive while yelling out the window.

  “You needing a ride?”

  Tucker nodded.

  “Well get on in, then. I can’t stop or it might not start again.”

  The driver leaned across the bench seat and shoved the passenger door open. It swung out, reached the limit of its twin hinges, and swung back shut.

  “Damn door,” the driver said. “Come on if you’ve a mind t
o.”

  Tucker continued walking as he looked the truck over, a 1949 Chevrolet with a painted grill, dented sides, and a bed slightly askew from bad leaf shocks. In one smooth motion he stepped onto the rusty running board, opened the door, and slid onto the cracked leather bench seat. The suddenness of his arrival startled the driver. The truck veered momentarily but he straightened its progress and they went a few miles in silence save for the clanking engine, a sound that began to annoy Tucker, who didn’t understand how anyone could neglect a machine that needed maintenance. Sunlight glared along the river, its surface shiny as lard.

  The driver tensed his left arm against the steady pull of badly aligned tires. The truck belonged to his brother-in-law, pretty much a nitwit who kept a lit cigarette lodged in a gap where he’d lost a tooth. Bolted to the dashboard was a coffee can filled with sand and cigarette butts.

  The driver inspected his passenger with quick sidelong glances. The boy had short clipped hair and wore russet-colored boots laced up the front. An army shirt had a red stop sign patch with some kind of dragon embroidered in gold. He was probably wearing his older brother’s fatigue shirt out of a sense of honor, or maybe just no money for better. Families on the Kentucky side of the river didn’t have a pot to piss in or a window to throw it out of.

  “You hunting work?” the driver said.

  Tucker shook his head.

  “If you’re wanting a tailor-made, dig around in that coffee can. Enough ends in there to build one.”

  Tucker looked out the window. He’d spent hours in transport vehicles beside men who liked to talk, and learned to ignore them by concentrating on the passing terrain. The truck’s momentum swept the translucent bulbs of dandelions into miniature whirlwinds. Tucker wondered vaguely how far a dandelion seed could drift on a breeze, if all the dandelions in the world had a common grandfather. The truck door rattled loose in its latch. A nuthatch walked headfirst down a hickory and Tucker recalled trying to duplicate that feat as a kid. He’d fallen six times, then quit. It was his favorite bird, a fact he kept to himself. Children had favorite birds and women favored certain pets. In a pinch, a man might like a horse.

  “Got in a fight with my wife,” the driver said. “Had to get out of the house, off the porch, and away from the yard. Hell, it was so bad I left the damn state! She gets in these moods, starts slamming cabinet doors and banging skillets. Got to head for cover. Her brother lives across the street and I took his rig. He’s about useless. You like it? I don’t. Runs rough, but I can push it like a borrowed mule. Which it is if you think about it, right?”

  Tucker nodded. Now that he was nearly eighteen with some veteran’s pay, he’d be in the market for a wife himself. But not a town woman, and damn sure not one from Ohio.

  “A man’s got to be free, don’t he,” the driver said. “Shit fire and save matches, that’s my name, ain’t it. I’m Tom Freeman. Free’s right there in my handle. I can’t help it, I was born to it. But I don’t have to tell you about free, you out roaming the roads big as day. You ain’t a runaway, are you? They say juvenile delinquents are tearing this country to pieces like picking a chicken. Comic books is what it is. You don’t read them do you?”

  Tucker shook his head. Comic books cost a dime, a nickel if the covers were torn off, and such sums were better reserved for necessary goods. Every cent he’d earned as a kid he gave to his mother, who used the money for food. She never purchased dry goods or notions and her kids didn’t fool with comic books. When she died, Tucker enlisted. He’d received one letter overseas, the envelope crumpled, his sister’s writing blurred on a scrap of brown paper bag, the information sad—his younger brother fell down a well and drowned.

  “Tell me something,” the driver said. “I ain’t a-caring if you’re on the run, I just don’t want to get mixed up in another feller’s trouble. What are you wearing them clothes with that dragon patch for? A body might think you’re a chucklehead out playing army in the woods. That what you’re up to? Slip off from the home place to act like a soldier?”

  Tucker slowly turned his head, his shoulders and body following at a slower pace, until he unleashed his gaze on the driver. Freeman stopped talking as if a cork was plugged into a bottle. The boy’s deep-set eyes were two different colors—one blue, the other brown. Freeman had heard about that with cats but never a human man.

  “Griffin,” Tucker said.

  “Huh?”

  “Ain’t no dragon.”

  “Say it’s some kind of griffith?”

  Tucker nodded.

  “What in the hell is that?”

  Tucker shrugged and averted his head. Freeman felt a relief similar to watching his wife angrily turn away to end a conversation. He had begun his professional life carrying a portable grinder and helping his father as a door-to-door knife sharpener. His father kept a concealed pistol and a half pint of liquor, ready to woo or fight anyone who got briggity. Freeman did the same. He considered halting the truck and sending the boy away. But he had no desire to return to a tense home, and had been hoping for a drinking partner. This boy would have to do. After a few tastes of rotgut rye he’d loosen his tongue enough to tell Freeman what a damn griffith was.

  The truck followed the river, and though it was out of sight beyond the heavy brush and trees, Tucker could smell the water. Sweat trickled inside his clothes. He was grateful for the heat, hoped never to be cold again after the Korean winter. He’d once lain in ambush so long that his clothing froze to the ground. Along the road, forsythia swayed in the ditch, its yellow blossoms pushed aside by the greening leaves. He should have kept on walking. He resolved to get out at the next crossroad. If ever compelled to travel in a vehicle again, he’d be the one driving. Until then Tucker remained vigilant for a turnoff. He’d jump out and stay away from people.

  The road continued east, shifting south to circumvent bends in the river, entering patches shaded by maples. The truck slowed for a sharp turn and Tucker saw a water moccasin draped over the low boughs of a tree. Farther on, a possum scurried for safety. Freeman swerved toward it, laughing, but missed the animal. The boy had no reaction and Freeman began thinking something was seriously wrong with him. Briefly, he reconsidered the idea of funneling liquor into a lamebrain on the loose.

  The road made three S-turns, then hit a straight stretch, and Freeman steered to a wide spot beneath an oak. He slipped the truck out of gear and goosed it with the foot feed, keeping a high idle. Tucker set his hand on the door handle.

  “Hold your horses, Griffith,” Freeman said. “Look here.”

  Freeman held a thirty-eight-caliber pistol loose in his hand, not in a particularly threatening manner, but the quarters were close. Tucker eased back against the seat, presenting the side of his body as a smaller target, protecting his vitals.

  “Open that glove box up,” Freeman said.

  Slowly and with great care, Tucker pressed the button to release the trapdoor in the dashboard. It was rusty and stuck. Tucker shifted his thumb on the button but it wouldn’t open.

  “You got to give it a hard little rap with your knuckle,” Freeman said.

  Tucker struck the button and the glove box fell open. Inside were three sheets of S&H Green Stamps adhering to themselves, a packet of BC powder for headaches, a Zippo lighter, and a jar of clear liquid. Freeman gestured with the pistol.

  “Reach that jar out,” Freeman said.

  Tucker lifted the pint jar, designed for canning vegetables in autumn. Freeman pressed the gun barrel against the griffin in the center of Tucker’s 108th Airborne patch.

  “Now,” Freeman said. “Take you a little drink.”

  Tucker opened the lid, which emitted the sharp scent of corn liquor. He lifted the jar to his lips, watching the gun. His mouth immediately anesthetized itself and his throat began burning. Warmth spread from his torso along his limbs.

  “One more,” Freeman said. “Make it a good ’un.”

  Tucker drank, breathing through his nose, tears leaking down
his face. Strength swept through him like weather, leaving him more clearheaded than before. He lowered the jar and waited.

  Freeman looked close, wondering if the harsh liquor might have altered the color of the boy’s eyes. He’d seen that before but the change usually ran to the red.

  “Pretty good, ain’t it,” Freeman said. “Don’t reckon you’d a took a drink without me holding a gun on you, would you?”

  Tucker shook his head once, slowly. Freeman slid his finger from the trigger and offered the revolver.

  “Now,” Freeman said, grinning big, “you make me take a drink.”

  He began laughing, great guffaws that rose and fell as if rediscovering the source of merriment. It was a good joke, the best joke, and he’d played it well. Tucker’s breathing was calm as a man asleep. Time had slowed, as if the world around him had doubled its pace. He’d felt this way in combat, a fish in the sea while all around him animals flailed to stay afloat. He took the pistol and aimed it at Freeman’s head. His laughter halted abruptly. Tucker removed the keys from the ignition. The truck shuddered and the engine stopped. He stepped out of the cab, tossed the keys into the weeds, and shouldered his ruck.

  “Don’t follow me,” Tucker said.

  He back stepped into the woods still holding the moonshine and pistol. He walked a few hundred yards to an overhang of willow. He opened his ruck, tucked the jar in, and removed his Ka-Bar combat knife and strapped it to his belt. He headed south, having formulated a plan to find the Licking River and follow it home. Though tired, he walked five more miles away from the vehicle. He climbed to a high spot and ate some of his food. He lay on his back, knife at one side and Freeman’s pistol by the other, watching night arrive.

  Tucker had missed the sheer expanse of sky at night, the tiny cluster of seven sisters, Orion’s sword, and the drinking gourd that aimed north. The moon was a gibbous, barely there, as if chewed away. The sky stretched black in every direction. Clouds blocked the stars, lending an unfathomable depth to the air. The tree line was gone and hilltops blended with the black tapestry of night. It was country dark. He closed his eyes, feeling safe.